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shala_beads
09 February 2011 @ 12:59 pm
So one of my exes sent me a friend request yesterday out of the blue. I have no idea what made him think of me, or why after all this time. I accepted, went on working on what I was making and didn't think of it for about 5 minutes until he started chatting with me.
I never know what to say when people ask "So, how's life been treating you?"
If it's been more than a year, what's the right answer? I know they don't want the actual answer. They want some sort of polite meaningless bs that leads to conversation. Not very good at that. So after a minute or two, I said "Probably better than I deserve." I guess it was the socially right answer. Because he said me too and kept typing at me.

I don't know why it surprises me when people that were in my life a decade or so ago find me and send me friend requests. It's not at all like I'm hard to find. There are only a few Shalas in Anchorage. Since my profile/etc is public, some people at least figure out that I'm the right one.
Sometimes though they aren't sure. Those are the ones that really amuse me. "You're friends with ___ and you live in Alaska, and I was wondering if you're the Shala that I knew in ___" umm.. well, did you ask ___ how many Shalas he knew? If I was the only one on his flist, it's pretty possible I'm the right one. My name isn't unique, but it is different.

What is there to say? Because I'm not the person they knew. They aren't the people I knew. The names and memories are the same, or at least very similar. But time and experience will have it's way, and you change and are changed by the events and choices.

But hey, I had an excuse to use one of my favorite icons! *icon love*
 
 
shala_beads
08 February 2011 @ 04:50 pm
Recently I had the opportunity to read The Hidden Reality by Brian Greene. If you don't know, Brian Greene is a physicist who specializes in string theory and has a remarkable talent for explaining theoretical physics and the history of science that led to the theories in a way that is very understandable. He uses a lot of metaphors, stories and humor. He's the author of The Elegant Universe and also hosted the show.
The Hidden Reality is about parallel universes, the idea that we exist, over and over. That everything that we are doing, have done and will do has all been done before and will be done again, and also that all the decisions and things that could have happened have happened as well.
It sounds a bit like a comic book, not at all like science doesn't it?
See, here's where the science and math come in. A lot of branches of physics and astrophysics are pointing more and more to the idea that the universe is infinite, that space and time themselves are infinite. So since everything starts with the same laws of physics, the same particles, the same atoms and molecules, everything repeats.
Because there are only a finite number of types of particles, because physics behave the same through out a possible infinite universe. So with a finite number of variables, the number of possibilities is also finite. But if the universe ISN'T finite, then specific possibilities come up again.
What's half of infinity? Well, infinity is like 0 only on the other end. Half of infinity is still infinity. It's not a finite number because 2x any finite number = a finite number. So it's a smaller infinity. Same with other fractions of infinity. So we repeat. Forever, somewhere out there. At least that's what the math indicates at this point in certain theories.
That there is a me a million years ago and many million light years away who typed this exact thing on this computer. That the particles, choices and events in my life have all happened before and will again.
The theories are gorgeous, it's like religion and science got mixed up in a much more logical way than the idea of intelligent design. It's incredibly comforting to think of.
Sure, it means there are mes who became the lawyer my mom always wanted to be, mes that never were because Mom got sent to the Appalachians instead of to Alaska. There are mes that married my high school sweetheart, and all those other possibilities. All those pivot points that could have changed everything happened, and they did. But if it's true, it also means that Michael and I are together, forever. Always. As it was in the beginning is now and ever shall be.
That thought makes me so very happy.
Truth is, in my head, in quiet moments, I've had conversations with mes that turned right instead of left, conversations with could have beens. My imagination runs away with me. But I'm part of the Mishachaella, and that's what matters most to me. The is.

Oh, some affiliate links. So if you want the books you can get them.
Hidden Reality- Kindle edition
Hidden Reality- dead tree version
The Elegant Universe -Kindle
The Elegant Universe - dead tree version
The Elegant Universe - film
 
 
Feeling: contentcontent
 
 
shala_beads
03 February 2011 @ 01:55 pm
The clues is just there for the rhyme.
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The reason I even mentioned the Crow thing was that she is planning a happy sunny tattoo based off a quote from the movie. I really want a word tattoo at some point, maybe just a word, maybe a quote. I'm not sure. See, whatever it will be, will be there for life. So what do I get etched into my skin? I've cross stitched quotes I liked, made pretty printable versions to hang on the door for a week or so, made little quote magnets and written them on my jackets, shoes and in my notebooks.I even have quotes in Sharpie on my living room wall. But what do I want permanently? I know what one will be. It will be just one word that means a lot to me.
But what quote would I use? What's worth having with me forever? What has influenced me that strongly? Not a movie for sure, and absolutely not The Crow. I leave that to it's fans. Along with so many other movies which mean so much to so many people.
A song? Which song? Which writer? Heck, which century if we are speaking of writers. I thought about setting up a Twitter account just for my highlights on my Kindle.
I don't know, so I haven't gotten a quote tattoo yet.
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I recently reviewed the new Earth's Children book. When I posted my review, there was one completely irrelevant review up by someone else who got an ARC of the book. Now their review is gone, and only mine remains. Getting lots of "this was not helpful" votes. It's very depressing. I hate reviewing fiction. It's so subjective. Do you like it or hate it? Why? is what's recommended. I said I liked it, and why.
For the record, I liked it, for the same reason I liked a lot of the rest of the series. Because Auel explains the tools and how they are made and used in a very readable story. Because self-sufficiency is sexy, even on a caveman level. Creating, making, doing.
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I posted some new mandalas up at DETP, and instructions for making sugar cubes. Don't Eat the Paste
 
 
shala_beads
30 January 2011 @ 04:57 pm
Right now someone I'm friends with on FB is posting Crow related statuses, along with a Crow related tattoo idea.
That movie comes along with a lot of strange memories for me.
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The last week was a really high pain week for me. But I still got a lot done. There are new printables on DETP, and a new project at Beadwork at BellaOnline. Read a bunch of books while trying to distract myself.

Hopefully this week is better!
 
 
Feeling: pensivepensive
 
 
shala_beads
24 January 2011 @ 04:08 pm
What's your favorite holiday, and why? Are there any holidays you dislike?

You already know this. Halloween. Hands down my favorite.
Because you can be who you want to be for one night, or just be different. It's make believe. It's a chance to show your creativity and humor.

Or it's an opportunity to dress in a tiny outfit and add a pair of devil horns, kitten ears or a witch hat and call it a costume. Which isn't what I ever do.
I love Halloween. I keep some of my decorations about year round, like the glow in the dark skeleton, or my collection of eyeballs. We start getting ready for Halloween around July. The Turnip starts planning her costume, I start crocheting and making things for Halloween. It's the reason for the season.
 
 
 
shala_beads
21 January 2011 @ 02:33 pm
How would you describe your ideal romantic partner in six words?

I actually only need one word. Michael.

But for 6 words to describe my reason for joy?
Strong, good, intelligent, considerate, generous, funny
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The other day in a chat, we were discussing priorities and goals. There was a fairly completely breakdown in communication between me and someone else in the chat because I'm not discontent. I have plans and ideas, but other than being at 5-6 on the pain scale for the last week, I'm happy. Just tired from hurting.
A big part of that is Michael. I finally just had to say "You know how honeymooners are so caught up in each other that the rest of the world kind of happens more around them than to them? The easiest way to deal with me is to think of me as one half of a couple on a honeymoon."
Being part of the Mishalchaela creature,there are a lot of things I do, but who I am, my goals and priorities, are all tied up in us. Everything else is less important. Yes, he feels the same way.
 
 
shala_beads
19 January 2011 @ 06:13 am
A life worth living. As far as "What are you doing for others?" I can honestly say if this man didn't exist, I might not either. I never met him, and I'm not sure if my mom ever did either.
He was instrumental in forming Vista though. Volunteers in Service to America.
My mother was a volunteer for Vista. She was sent here to Alaska after training. She lived in a tiny village with only a few indoor toilets teaching children how to read and write. A fairly innocent California girl who had lived near cities her entire life, finding out how primitive living conditions were in parts of America came as a shock.

It's been in the back of my head since last month, and like Martin Luther King Jr. said "What are you doing for others?"
Never seems like enough really.
 
 
shala_beads
17 January 2011 @ 10:44 am
Dr. King once said "Life's most persistent and urgent question is 'What are you doing for others?'"
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Is anyone else getting absolutely insane amount of spammy comments?
 
 
shala_beads
22 December 2010 @ 11:56 am
I think we are ready for the holidays. Maybe.
Michael is back on his normal schedule.
I'm back on mine somewhat, at least I'm almost caught up.
The Turnip Girl knitted an open mesh using her toes as a knitting loom. She really needs to craft blog. I'm sure that's a pretty uncommon idea. A lightweight scarf made that way could be a lot of fun.
 
 
Feeling: amusedamused
 
 
shala_beads
20 December 2010 @ 07:23 am
Still not done shopping. Almost done. So very close to done, but not there yet.
Last week was pretty insane. Michael wound up working a bunch of night shifts for various reasons. End result for both of us was being short on sleep. But we were also able to get a bunch of things done during the day, including getting him a few boxes of K-cups for that coffee maker (he fears the dark matter the rest of us call coffee). We also took the teens to the thrift store, eldest teen found a clock he wants to decorate into a steampunk sort of thing, youngest found a brown overcoat which looks nicely doctor-ish.
Me? I got what I considered a huge score. A whole bunch of 60s and 70s craft books. Quilting, stitching, etc, and a towel holder kit to make a macrame frog towel holder. Including the eyes!
Today he's back to his normal schedule.
Almost all the shopping is done, the knitting, not yet.