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Writer's Block: Father figure

What's the most memorable piece of advice your father has shared with you?

"All they can do is kill me. They can't eat me."

The question was what was memorable. That's certainly memorable, but it never made sense to me, if they kill you, they could eat you, but they probably won't. He usually says it in a very cheerful voice when he's about to do something he really doesn't want to do. Or when he decides he's not doing something that he should do. I did ask him once "Don't you think if they kill you, they might be able to eat you?" and he said "Oh, no. I'm all gristle and a**hole. Nobody wants to eat that."

What makes more sense is this one...
"All they can do is kill you, but they probably won't do that."

I take that to mean to be willing to take risks and not be afraid of asking questions or looking foolish, because the worst they can do is probably not what they are going to do. After that, the worst that can happen is that someone tells you no, or you might look foolish, but you'll know, you'll have done whatever it is that there is to do.
Coffee Domination

Writer's Block: Get up

If you had to eat the same breakfast everyday for a year (and it would be prepared and served to you), what would you choose?

Cheerios! 2% milk. Banana on the side. Not in my cereal. Don't mess with my Cheerios. JUST milk. 'k? OJ, COFFEE!

But I'd be happy with just Cheerios with milk and coffee. Because Cheerios is my favorite food.
Really truly.

Now... who's serving it? Because if it's my sweet, darling husband, can he wear a ruffly apron? Please?
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Writer's Block: Teenage dream

If you arrived at your front door and saw your first love standing there, what would you do or say?

I missed this one a few days ago!
First love is hard to define. Maybe not for other people but there are a few kinds of first loves..

To my serious high school sweetheart, the one I mean when I say "high school sweetheart" rather than all the guys I dated in those 4 years?
"I hope you are well, and I'm glad you found your way back to Alaska. Please come back later when my husband is home."
I think he and my husband would get along okay and Michael could possibly help him find a job. R was a good guy who has gone through a lot.

My first adult love who I felt a strong connection with?
"BACK FOUL CREATURE OF THE NIGHT! You will not suck my blood or eat my brains!"
Which is my way of laughing at something that's not at all funny. At a point when I was fairly well broken, he helped me put the pieces back together again. But we had too much in common and we broke up in part because of that. He died young and while I know it would have never worked, neither of us could be a stabilizing influence on the other, I'm still absolutely enraged he's not in this world anymore. The world deserves his silk over sandpaper declaiming Shakespeare boldly, and some woman out there is going without his whisper in her ear quoting Byron, and that still has the power to make me weep.

My first true love?
"How was your day at work sweetie?"
Because as much as I may have cared about other people, loved them, been loved by them, I was never truly in love until Michael. Always held something back. Some of them were almost Mr. Right, and good enough to learn from and to have good experiences with, but ultimately, my first true love, the one that all others pale in comparison to is Michael.
It's been 15 years now, and we are more committed and more in love now than we were in the beginning.
Hot Summer Night

My life according to Marian Call

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Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)"

Are you a male or female:
Good Old Girl

Describe yourself:
I Wish I Were a Real Alaskan Girl

How do you feel:
It Was Good For You Too

Describe where you currently live:

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
West of the Mountains

Your favorite form of transportation:
Flying Feels Like

Your best friend is:
Something Fierce

You and your best friends are:
In the Black

What's the weather like:
Chelsea Morning

Favorite time of day:
Sunday Afternoon

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
I'll Still Be a Geek After Nobody Thinks It's Chic

What is life to you:
Love and Harmony

Your relationship:
I'm Yours

Your fear:
We're Out for Blood (The Zombie Cheerleader song)

What is the best advice you have to give:
Whistle While You Wait

Thought for the Day:
Got To Fly

How you would like to die:

Your soul's present condition:

Your motto:
It's Good to Have Jayne on Your Side

Check out Marian's music here.

Writer's Block: A super debate

If you could either have the powers of Spider-man or the Green Lantern, which would you choose, and why?

Seriously? This is the Writer's Block?

Green Lantern. No question.
Yes, With great power yada yada.. but that's covered in the Oath. But a GL's responsibility is universal. As in.. not just on this planet. Obligated to help out nearby planets. They are considered some of the heavy lifters in the DCU. So, you get to see earth from orbit. You have just a ton of power, but also a team to help you out. They fixed that little problem with the color yellow.

and even after all that? The accessories darling. I do love jewelry.

So say it with me..
In brightest day, in blackest night,
No evil shall escape my sight
Let those who worship evil's might,
Beware my power... Green Lantern's light!
Coffee Domination

Let's see

It's been over a month since my last update. Darn you Facebook! Eating up my time and thoughts!
Well, that just being awfully busy and the other blog.
This weekend was really exciting. Almost too exciting. Poor Michael. He hates being around people so much. Every so often he suggests going out clubbing, I think I'd rather be clubbed than expose him to large crowds.
Friday, well, we all know about Japan. One of the things that happened is that a bunch of Pacific flights were diverted to Alaska. So Michael and Dad were both very busy at their jobs. Dad works at the airport and Michael's hotel is very close to the airport. Thursday night, Coolio did a concert here, and he was staying at Michael's hotel as well. Even though they were so busy, M did ask Coolio to sign my copy of Cookin' With Coolio. I wrote more about that here.
That night, Marian Call did a concert at Bosco's. Full of awesome. I picked up a code to download her album Got to Fly that I'm giving away on my other blog. See how to win here. Please enter. So far there is only one entry so your chances are really good, and it's a kick ass album. The concert was a lot of fun. But after M's day at the job, it was a lot of people and socializing.
The next day was the Empty Bowl Project, Empty Bowl is a fund-raiser for our local soup kitchen. Artists from around the state make and donate handmade bowls, you buy a ticket, and for that ticket, you get to choose a bowl, and eat all the soup and cornbread you can. The soup recipes are from local restaurants. So you know this is 3 things our family loves. A good cause, art and food. William picked a HUGE bowl with a fish design, M and I picked bowls based on color and stackability. Realizing they would have to fit in our cupboards. The Turnip Girl picked based on style and color, or if you haven't been following along at home, whichever blue was closest to TARDIS blue. The line was long. Hundreds of people in front of us (we got there a half hour early) and hundred of people behind us. When we finally got in, M's nerves were fairly frazzled from standing in line for so long with all those people. But we enjoyed our soup and picking our bowls. The kids loved it.
After that we went home, M was fairly cranky but offered to take me to the movies anyway. I gaped at him and told him I'd rather give up coffee than go out with him again that weekend. "You've dealt with enough people. But I do really appreciate your willingness." He replied he wasn't that cranky. I said "You know, right up until some teens start talking behind you, or someone is texting, or someone kicks my chair. Then it will get bloody, messy and I'll have to bail you out." He laughed and said "You're probably right."
So we spent the weekend at home, and I made dinner based on what was in the freezer.
I think he's planning to grill tonight. Because he's been wanting to, even though it's about 6 degrees. Every day when he drives to work he sees his precious grill under it's cover, and he's not waiting for spring!
It's been very busy. But very wonderful.
i will remain

Writer's Block: The long and winding road

Are there any difficult events in your past that made you a stronger person today? If you could go back and erase them, would you?

Yes, of course there are. Some of them truly sucked. Sucked like the theoretical black holes that galaxies revolve around.
Some I learned from, some I simply survived. I still have scars, some visible, some not. I can't sleep naked, and the doors have to be locked for me to feel safe. The back door of my house is nailed shut because it's too close to our bedroom. And those aren't the worst fears. The ones that I cry over, the ones that are a constant struggle to overcome were caused by something else. That deep seated fear that maybe I really am an absolutely horrible person and that everything good in my life is just luck that I don't deserve.
I wouldn't change a line. Not the scars on my face or the scars on my heart. Because for the most part, except when those spiders are spinning lots of webs in my head, I love my life, and getting to this point took all that crap in the past. Finding, and realizing what I had in Michael, my children, my family and my friends. Having a goal and a direction in life, having all that came from everything else. Why risk it being different? Because I don't know exactly which choices and situations got me here, and I wouldn't risk here and now for anything.
So all I can say is sorry to past me, sorry, even if I could save you the pain, I won't. Because when it's done, there are good times ahead. Times when you're doing more than having fun occasionally, when for the most part, you will be happy. Not enough people find happy and you deserve it.
I deserve it.